Saturday, April 17, 2010

Unconquered


A debilitating case of tuberculosis of the bone saw Henley in pain for many years. His contemporaries saw him as an inspiration. Even those who did not get along with his views as editor of the National Observer, such as William Butler Yeats, praised him, "I disagreed with him about everything, but I admired him beyond words." Read Invictus with this in mind and see if you can not now feel more powerfully the truth behind the ink.

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley

Thursday, April 8, 2010

That's What I've been trying to tell Ya'!!!



The scriptures repeatedly say that miracles are the result of faith. They repeatedly say that God works in our lives through the gift of faith. I have been trying to live my life predictively, asking God if it is right before I even take the first step. That's not how it works! I have known this forever but I am only just starting to realize this. God is no fortune teller, he is our guide. He waits until we choose a path and lets us know before we proceed too far down that path whether it is the right way or not; he has never led us astray. It is our lack of faith to take the first step that has led us astray. Thank you God. Thank you for letting me live my life and learn to live by faith.

Monday, April 5, 2010

Yeah, Exactly


Don't take life too seriously; you'll never get out of it alive.
-Elbert Hubbard

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Kingdom of Heaven


The Kingdom of Heaven is within each of us. When Jesus preached repentance and the kingdom, he preached the best within us. He preached our divinity. He preached our potential. He preached our destiny.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Castles



As the stock broker walked up to his house, as he had done a thousand times before, he noticed the next door neighbor's little boy playing outside in his dilapidated sand box. His mother had just been diagnosed with cancer and his dad had been working fifteen hour days, seven days a week just to pay the bills.
"Hey there Akeem!" the Broker said to the child, trying to break the monotony of the day with a moment of human contact. He didn't have any kids of his own yet and he liked Akeem's enthusiasm for all things life.
"Oh HI!" the little boy blurted out, with a quick glance at the Broker, then back to his dilapidated sand pit.
"Now what have you got going on there?"
"Oh, nothing much, I'm just finishing up my castle..."
The Broker looked at the "castle" as he would look at a young child's drawing of a zebra, or an elephant. The drawing looking more like a conglomerate mass of ink and lines than a discernible object. The only thing he could muster was "oh."
"Oh don't worry...," putting the finishing touches on four towers of sand, each in one corner of the dilapidated sandbox, "These are just the columns to hold the castle up! Look... see the castle?!" As he stopped his work and pointed straight up into the sky above his head, he smiled with admiration and awe. The Broker followed his pointing finger up to a blue sky, interrupted intermittently with clouds making their debut, like credits at the end of the movie, moving into and out of the frame of the sky.
"Huhh..." the Broker remarked, obviously not seeing any kind of castle. The boy was just a child, giving him the distinct advantage to know when people, especially adults, were being insincere.
"You don't see it?! Look! It's huge! It has a giant gate, and four big towers, its walls are made of big stones cut into squares, and see how white it is?" The Broker then became more confused as the child was looking up, wondering how, if there had been a castle up there, he could see its structural details when he was directly underneath it. He let the thought pass.
"Oh, you mean the clouds...yeah...oh, yeah, I could see how that one might be shaped like a castle...yeah, that's really neat."
The boy was just a boy but his childhood revealed the Broker's true sentiments yet again.
"You don't see it, huh? That's all right. It's my castle anyways. Maybe I'm the only one who can see it, but it's cool. You should build yourself a castle. You can build any kind of castle you want, because the sky is really big and there is plenty of room up there for all of our castles."
"Oh, ok...yeah, I'll think about...I'll start drawing up the plans for it tonight and start building it this weekend when I have some free time."
"Ok, but you should just start now, it's really easy."
"Thanks, I'll do that!" the Broker said as he turned aside and walked away. He entered his house thinking about Akeem, a little boy so enthusiastically bent on finishing the four columns in a dilapidated sand pit for his castle in the sky. He walked into his office and stood there, drinking in the antique classics his ritzy job was able to afford him. As he scanned the shelves, admiring his collection, one book in particular caught his eye. It was one of his old anthologies he used in college, this one was the Norton Anthology of American Literature. He had a couple of pieces of paper marking some of his favorite passages: Emerson, Poe, Dickinson, and...Thoreau. He opened up to Thoreau and scanned the page. His eyes immediately flew to the bottom of the page where he spied the word "castle" He read the part he had underlined as an undergraduate at Harvard.
“Do not worry if you have built your castles in the air. They are where they should be. Now put the foundations under them.”
He closed the book and sat down in his plush, leather chair. He closed his eyes and let himself drink in the air around him. His thoughts turned from the NASDAQ to his notebook. He hadn't written anything in it for years; maybe a couple of quotes here and there, but never anything more than a sentence or two. As he opened his eyes and looked around the room for his notebook, he said out loud to himself, "Perhaps it's about time I start writing that book I've always wanted to." At that moment, his wife happened to be walking by the door to his office and said, "What was that sweetheart?"
"Oh nothing babe...dinner almost ready?"
"Yep...I'll come get you when its ready."
As she walked away, he smiled to himself. He spotted his notebook, took it off the shelf, and picked up a pen from his desk. Still standing with the notebook in his hands, he wrote the first lines of his book.
“Dedicated to Akeem. Keep building your castle and never let it fall from the sky.”

Sunday, March 21, 2010

You ask, Now What?

Cavett Robert said

"Character is the ability to carry out a good resolution long after the excitement of the moment has passed."

Start: Walk into the BYU bookstore. Take the staircase leading to the basement floor where the school supplies are.
See "Planners" on a sign down aisle 2 and turn into the aisle.
Perfect.
Three days later, Latin class, head resting on folded arms while the rest of the class goes over the translations suppose to do for homework.
Go back four days. Have already failed two tests. Academic standing for next lacrosse season looking bleak. Got to do something. Repeat first step.

Your resolutions are only as good as your word to yourself. If you can't be true to yourself, you will never be true to your commitments. Your dreams will vanish along with your self-respect, and your life will be a canvas with ugly strokes and bleak colors.

Don't repeat the first step. Make perfect the last step before the rest of your happy life, not the rest of your cyclical debased life.

Saturday, February 20, 2010

Falling High

I opened up the cage today
to let the butterfly out.
It fluttered and flitted from
dark to light, translucent
spectacles of whites, azures,
rose, black; freedom of flight
finds it flying towards the light.
It soars, glides, and feels the open
air for a bit. Suddenly nature turns
against the butterfly. Translucent turns
from gilded wings to leaden feet.
It crashes to the earth below
feeling nothing more than the
freedom given and taken.
They say the Lord giveth and he
taketh away; I say the Lord
has given and allows us our day.
Nothing can predict, no
heart can tell, no mind can see
what pain the free air would befell.
But comforting most of all, is no
regret and no disdain. Love grown stronger,
a heart stretched and a lesson learned.
Now and forever, the butterfly will live
to soar, it knows no limitations, it can not predict
it can not tell, no mind can see, what the future will
bring and the past befell. Only experience will bring
the fruit of life, the nectar the butterfly
sips as he regains his regal
reign on earth and beauty within.
Bring on the tour, new air, and
new territory, new lessons, new loves
but all compounded in one, all
a help returning to our kingdom,
all our blessing to be able to say
I've never failed, but damn how I've learned.